the concept of no contact alone is difficult for me to carry out. i am just hoping that with less and less of it, that it will come easier for me.
when i was in constant chaos with her and there was a weekly crises, those were hard times. but i think it is harder in a different way to detach. its a different struggle. when she was living here and there was chaos there was still some sort of attachment. this detachment is more difficult, because there is nothing to hold onto. it is letting go. this is the real hard part, so i just havent gotten to nc yet.