fingers crossed
she called but i let it go to vm. i wanted to gauge what was up before i decided to talk or not. she sounded very depressed and said it was real important. i thought she would be asking for money, so i was very proud to have my tools in place and give a firm - NO. instead, she started crying and apologizing and saying her life is completely out of control and that she is on her way to the rehab place. she looked up the number, called, and got a ride all on her own.
i told her i was proud and wished her luck. she said she noticed that i had been sounding different on the phone, and i explained that i had been taking control of my life and have been feeling good (i didnt tell her the mornings were still rough). I am not getting my hopes up because i do not want to derail my path. i'm continuing with meetings. and getting this growth, i am not so sure i cna even think about a future anyway. there are too many things i want to do for me. but i am glad that she is finally giving it a try.