Jopsuey, you are not alone. Most of with alcohol problems have faced dire consequences because of it. People on this website will offer you comfort, widsom, love and support. Things will get better if you stop drinking. You can do it - you are probably far stronger than you realize. You took the first step, by posting and that demonstrates a lot of courage. I wish I could give you a hug and tell you it will be better. But, from my own experience - fear can be powerful motivator for change. I'm here if you need me
