littlesparrow...thanks so much for your insightful post. what an amazing realization...she is like my alcoholic voice in human form!! a voice that undermines me. don't get me wrong, i am glad for my mother and that she's healthy and active, but she has never been one to support or recognize my strength and growth. strange to say, she's a very competitive person and always has to come out on top, even when it comes to her own daughter!! i plan to find a stronger voice for myself...getting sober is just the first step.
thanks everyone. hang in there Deserto...you are an awesome person...we need you here!!