Alaskasunshine - STOP in your tracks
Sit down. Take a really deep breath or two. Now - Thanks for posting and letting us know how you're feeling!
You know you don't really want to go to the liquor store - or you wouldn't be here! Your AV wants to twist you and talk you into going.... It is scared because you're succeeding and it is getting left in the cold. Your AV is whispering lies and a bunch of crap to you.... You won't feel better if you go to the store. You know how horrible and ashamed you'll feel if you listen to it.
You've come so far - don't turn back now. What can you do right now to shut it up? Is there an AA meeting you can go to? I don't remember if you have a sponsor yet? Think about your earlier meetings and all the progress you're making in your recovery. Think about your bible study class! Think about your kids - how proud you feel about yourself when you don't drink.
You don't need booze to make you feel better! It doesn't work anyway!!!
More in a minute.....