Welcome 4me1
Nothings more wrong with you than any of us - or as my granny used to say 'you ain't got nuthin the rest of us haven't got'.
It took me 15 years to face up to my problem, and to accept that I could not drink - not if I wanted the kind of life I wanted and wanted to be the person I wanted to be.
I think the key for most of us is good sober support and a fair bit of commitment and effort.
I'd also think about seeing a Dr - best to be safe
Hope to see you around here regularly, 4me1.
D