Originally Posted by Deserto

Hi Watchful! Welcome and thanks for posting.


The thing that finally clicked for me was the notion that even if I could avoid drinking, and even if I could go several times with just a few drinks (to prove my control), that eventually I would drink a heck of a lot more than I wanted to, and once I got to that point I would just keep on drinking -- that I was at times powerless before alcohol.

Sounds like you've done some things drunk that you wouldn't willingly do sober, and yet have continued to return to drinking. We all have, so I'm not being critical -- but that sounds like some degree of powerlessness to me.