I had the same issue myself but then i got a sponsor and started taking it seriously and my perception of things faded. I was insecure i had my doubts if i wanted to be ther I mean quitting the one thing i loved so much and knew for so long does take a toll but once i finally made the commitment to do things right and take that leap of faith things changed. My sponsor told me take 2 names off of the list and call them every day and 2 different people every day. talk to them and just tell them that your sponsor told you to and you are doing what they say and trusting them. I have built several great relationships that way peope get to know you and you get to know them. I am not saying you are doing anything wrong but at least for me the more i put into it the more i get out of it. and doing what my sponsor told me has built me a really good support group. just remember we are not alone and sometime you have to reach out to prove it to yourself. Just sayin
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