I don't know your age, but I was there too 15 years ago. Owned my own business thought life was going great. Then you wake up one day and something has changed. It happens that quick- that's the baffling part. It just flips on you. All I can say is it is good that you recognize that your drinking is not normal by any means regardless of the effect on your life now. Awareness is one of the first things to go in this disease along with the big one- Denial.