I was you Bobby - for maybe the first 10 years of my drinking - but man, the last ten were another kettle of fish entirely.
I counted on always being able to be that 'functional' - I had it sussed.....
What I didn't realise then was that functionality was just a phase in my eventual progression to being 'that guy' the neighbourhood drunk.
I think Anna's right - maybe you need to look more right now at the problems and concerns that have bought here, rather than the ways you're still on top of things?....you do not want to end up like me.
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