wow, my post sounds so overwhelmingly miserable. i wanted to say that my life has been one of great joys, too. my children, family, and all the things i love-nature, art, music, humor, have made my life one worth living.
i guess i could clear it up a bit. i felt the jealousy when close in a relationship with a man, but not to say it ruined each day. there were a lot of good times. some men even tried to be mindful and help me with my insecurity. it is just that it always reared its ugly head when i tried to be trusting with a man. but, i managed to have some really good times.
now, when i think of maybe having a relationship again, it makes me not want to let down my guard, for that is when it is the hardest. maybe it is just too hard for me.
dbh, I did not mean to say that you are like I was. you sound like you have had much success in spite of your insecurity. i wish that there was a trick, to make it go away.
my best wishes for you,
chicory
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