Clipper, you have to hang in there and stay the course. You can start by reading your last post, and think about the words you used, and every time you used the word 'try'. Get rid of that word and replace it with something that says 'do'. Set your jaw and do this thing like you mean it. Firm up that plan, it's a good one, and make it a promise. Treat that promise as though your life depends on it because it does.