Originally Posted by
rosie323 
Few months back I told him how I can't wait for him and am going to start dating other people.
Based on the brief description you offered of this relationship, it sounds toxic. A bit like a game of push me - pull me.
I think it may be time to follow-through on your ultimatum.
Is it painful to end a relationship, even the toxic ones, yes! There is a normal grieving process. Sometimes it is grieving the fantasy of what could have been.
I wish you the best as you continue to work on your recovery from an alcoholic relationship.