I can't tell you how much this makes sense for me. Thank you. Control, trust, walking away, all me. AF always broke promises and always promised again. Always said he was sorry for beatings and always beat again. One of my worst things is when someone says they're sorry, I say I don't care, stop what your doing, sorry means nothing to me.
I had a good friend for 15 years that understood me totally. Once when I was complaining about someone he said, just tell me you aren't going to "X" them out of your life, because that's what you do. You just "X" people out of your life. I hadn't even realized that I did that, and I hadn't realized he knew that about me. But he grew up in a totally happy "Leave it to Beaver" family so he had no understanding the survival techniques that we ACA's have to develop.
Yes I totally have to turn over my anxieties to God. One thing that helped me was realizing this pattern:
Anxiety = Worry
Worry = Doubting
Doubting = Not trusting
Not trusting God HP
So then I real it in and realize I need to activate and practice my trust in God.
Just what works for me. Hope can find peace in times of anxiety.