sometimes its not so easy to stay positive, and my problems cover up my tendency to be a junkie. its not that i forget that im an addict, i just forget how much i cant help myself if i get near a line of my DOC. some of my hobbies potentially are around users. no, i dont need a new hobby though because i always have a choice to say no. and not every time that i play music will there be junkies around.
its nice to be positive though. instead of not ever doing anything i have been looking at the fun-ness of the scene and purchasing some of the local band's cd's and merchandise and it gives me a happy feeling to go and then leave before i start getting tired. just enough loud music to enjoy myself
. its quite different going to shows without using or drinking or having a cig to puff on.
how do you stay positive and do things that make you happy while dealing with your life's crap?