I feel a little better now that I have read your posts. I thought about and am amazed that i did not just give in again like i have in the past. I have not had a drink since so I will move on.
I have not found a sponser yet. I cant seem to find someone I am not comfortable with. I do have a friend that said she would be my sponsor but she has never been an alchoholic and is not familiar with the steps. Right now i have been calling her when I feel the urge to drink. Even though she has never been an alchoholic she seems to know what to say. Anyways hopefully I will connect with someone to help with the steps.