From page 61
Is he not a victim of the delusion that he can wrest satisfaction and happiness out of this world if he only manages well?
This (as I see it) is the management that I fail at and the result of my mismanagement is here on page 52
We were having trouble with personal relationships, we couldn't control our emotional natures, we were a prey to misery and depression, we couldn't make a living, we had a feeling of uselessness, we were full of fear, we were unhappy, we couldn't seem to be of real help to other people
It doesn't matter if my checkbook is balanced or not if I'm living in abject misery every moment of the day.
These things above are what I cannot live with. These things above are what drive me back to the bottle despite the consequences. These things above are what must be addressed if I am going to stay sober.