dbh

Even after four years of recovery and many years of therapy I find myself to be a very jealous person. This is one of my character flaws that I would gladly give up.

I think it steams from the fact that it's still so difficult for me to trust someone 100%. Comes from a lifetime of lies and broken promises from my alcoholic father. I know I shouldn't project my father's lack of character onto my husband (who is a great guy). I just have this defense mechanism that still makes me look for lies and inconsistency.

I must be a joy to live with!

Trusting someone completely and totally leaves you open to be hurt. When you were hurt by one of the first people that you are suppose to be able to trust it's very hard to reclaim that sense of innocence again.

Thanks for letting me share.

db