I've been to inpatient twice and both times, once I started sobering up, the first thing I wanted to do was get the hell out of there by any means possible. But I stuck with it both times and didn't want to leave at the end of it. I'm happy that you're getting this opportunity Misskris. Embrace it for the blessing that it is and do what you need to do to make the rest of your life worth living. I'm glad you finally understand surrender. Looking forward to hearing more from you when you get back.
--Fenris.