i mean the thing is you really have to give in and surrender to the fact that you have a disease I've heard it over and over and ove and over and over and over, but never did, I mean this is the fourth time I will be in treatment and like, yeah, I get it, but till you get it you will fight it, cuz no one wants to give in and admit it, like, c'mon, if you can beat it on your own, who wouldn't wanna? I can't beat it and till ya get to that point ya just don't get it, and I FINALLY get it.