also, am so having thoughts about treatment, have been to this place befor and tho I KNOW it is what I need, and that I can and WILL do it, it is so daunting, it is no picnic, it is very regimented, it really breaks you down to build you up, which is what I know I need at this point, but still, not really having second thoughts, but, uh, not so looking forward to the process, rather the oputcome, so words of encouragement are welcome, such as, stop being a spoiled brat and be happy you can even be medically detoxed and have treatment and the so forth...which is what I've been telling myself...but kinder words of encouragemnt as well...thank you!