Hi AlaskaGirl,
If you're in Alaska, I'm just south of the panhandle, on BC's north coast
I stepped off the oneway slope of alcoholism at exactly the point you are at right now. I was so afraid what would happen if I stopped, and couldn't for the life of me even comprehend how I could go one week without drinking.
Just remember...one equals many.
It really does get easier the longer you stay sober. At 15 months I still get the odd intrusive drinking thoughts, but they are soooo easy to shrug off now!
Keep coming back here several times a day. Participate. Learn. Educate yourself about how the alcohol has changed your brain, and how sobriety will allow it to return to its natural balanced state.
Nothing truly worthwhile is ever easy, and this just might be the most important endeavour of your life. Stay with us, okay?
Murray