I finally plucked up the courage to get a shiny new desire chip at the women's AA group tonight. As they all clapped, I surprised myself by turning the eye faucets on! tears were running down my cheeks. I felt 6 years old. Then afterward a bunch of women came over and wrote their names and numbers down. I felt so cared about.
I have done AA before. I have gotten a 30 day chip before and a 60 day chip before. But I was always too embarrassed to get a desire chip. Tonight I made myself be humble. And I feel elated now. Thank you all for helping me find this courage. I want it to stick this time. So, so much.
Hope everyone is having a sober evening.