One needs to be pretty willing and motivated to work the steps with rigorous honesty. It's hard to do that work and half measures "avail us nothing". If you are ambivalent about whether you are alcoholic, even, that ambivalence might be carried into the rest of the steps. The twelveth step will be pretty hard to do, maybe even dangerous, for the real alcoholic you may try to help. The whole point of the fellowship is to bring alcoholics to gather and to share the solution and to help other alcoholics get sober.
Whether or not you are alcoholic is for you to decide.... But huh, man, you are pretty obsessed with alcohol... Counting drinks and all.... I also hear a good bit of rationalization and justification...
That's OK, God knows I had a hard time with the first step myself... You are counting drinks, all that... You are among people like yourself.
Can you work the steps anyway? I have no idea... Maybe someone else has an answer.