Julia I'm very sorry that your going through this pain.. Your Story is so familiar to many of us here.... Alcoholics Cannot Love Anyone But Their Alcohol.
You and Your daughter deserve better than this.... I'm not saying this to hurt you but do you feel his worried about you and her while he is out what he thinks "having the time of his life" The answer is "No" Alcoholics are self-centered individuals. I left my ex 4 times before I finally left for good.... My best advice to you is to get involved with a hobby, spend more time with friends. go places and experience something new that you have never experienced but always wanted to. Trust Me He isn't worth your tears, now it's healthy to cry when you are letting go and it cleanses the soul. Be thankful for your new found freedom and start finding you again and that's when peace and happiness will start to follow. We are here for you. Cyber Hugs