I wish I could trust. Anyone. Anyone at all.
I am home today alone, knowing that I have to stop drinking... and drinking is the ONLY thing that quiets that hounding bitch of a voice inside my head that hates Me.
I have no friends.
I have no family.
...or none that I can trust.
I have been through more than I wanted to go through.
I know we all have our stories...... but today? Today I just can't seem to find even one small glimmer of light.
Alcohol, right now, is my only friend. And, as with the rest of them, it is a friend I cannot and should not trust. Like my previous family and friends... the truth is, alcohol is just like they are.... fake. A lying, stealing, ******* fake.
Sigh.
The worst fake of all.