hey thanks everyone for the advice. NA Meetings, well honestly, noone besides my brothers and some friends know I do Rock. So that's why I don't wanna go to meetings and such- at 17, telling someone you're addicted, that's a no-no. I'd feel embarrased and everything, i dont know i guess I just dontt want them knowing i do this. Like right now, its 8:15 where I live, I have $50 bucks. I'm getting this cravings and I'm a lil depressed because I got stood up, apparently I was gonna go to the movies with a girl friend to take her out, but nothing. I might buy rock, but idk. I don't want to, it's just, it'll take my feelings away. Its sad. :/ hopefully I don't give in and buy.. how's everyone doing? anyway thanks again for everything, I really appreciate it. Day number 4 is today, I gotta keep soberness going.. hopefully I do.