Sorry to hear of your relapse. They happen so sneakily. Good on you for having the strength to destroy your stash.
I am not usually one for prayer, but I will have you in my thoughts tonight, all the way over here in Australia. I hope you find the program to suit you, perhaps there are online skype style programs so you don't have to risk driving on snow?
The other thing I remember picking up the last time I was in these forums... it's not about your fall from the wagon, it's how you pick yourself up again. You slipped once, you did not fail. Keep on acting as if you never slipped, don't let it be an excuse to start again.