I Relapsed :(
I turned 17 2 months ago and as you all know (well probably don't remember) but around months ago I posted how I was gonna stop.. and I did, but last week I relapsed and apparently was only gonna buy one rock and ended up buying around 500 in 4 days. Not by myself, with friends and brothers. I feel horrible. Very horrible. I'm doing pretty good I graduate this year from high school and everything, but.. I'm a crackhead. Will I ever stop doing this? I thought I was gonna be able to stop for good, and I even survived the craving for months.. but I still relapsed. IT SUCKS. I even did coke to stop the addiction but nothing. i haven't done it in like 3 days but damn I really wanna stop. :/ I don't wanna be a crackhead especially know my father, whom i have never knew nor met, is one and is homeless. I dont know i guess I'm asking how could I stop cravings? How could I stop myself from ever doing it again? I know I can stop for months but am gonna end up relapsing again for sures.. :/