So today is day two clean from pain pills.... This is not my first attempt over the past month.
I have been taking pain pills everyday for the past 3months now and never in my life would have thought i would have become to hooked and helpless.
i am 19 years old and once again never thought WD from any medicine or drug would be so terrifying and painful.
Usually at day two i feel like complete poo. but this time it feels different?
Maybe im just so sick of taking the damn things. Or sick of myself and what i have become....
My back is really sore. My find is some what foggy....
The diareahha hasn't hit yet.. and i hope it doesnt because that symptom and not being able to eat is what always makes me relapse.
I have been praying to God non stop.. which i haven't in a long time.
I missed him.
I have been eating Banana's and drinking gatorade.
I really want to continue this everyday. and hope i dont feel any worse
I know i need help beyond just me and God..but im not sure what to do from here.
Scared. Proud. Excited. lonely. confussed. TIRED> Just want out!!!
i did make a apointment for monday for suboxone but im not sure if thats the best route... do i really need it?