hi ddrayer
I really don't like the word fail....it's hard to change our lives.
You just need to look at what happened, look at what you've been doing so far, and think about what other things you can add to your recovery regime to shore yourself up - do you need more support, do you need to change your routine for a little while? etc
Relapse is never fun but we can learn from mistakes if we're clever
welcome back
D