hi sad,
i am on day 1 today too. there have been many attempts for me but this one feels like i am really committed to it. i went to my first AA meeting on friday night, buzzed and ashamed of myself, terrified to walk through the door. when i got there and saw so many brave people of all ages and places in life, i felt inspired by them.
my drinking has been "secret" too...mostly in the house. i am so ready to give up the shame of it, as well as the danger, distance from my loved ones, and poor health that goes with it. sending you virtual hugs and support.