10 days for me, I remember quite vividly that nasty agonizing feeling of defeat, driving home from a crack binge, scared to face my family b/c I did it again and the overwhelming feeling of self disgust, shame and depression. Since then I slowly got the strength to go to meetings, work with my sponser, work my steps. I see others who believe there is hope for me and it helps to know that they believe in me although I have little hope for myself most of the time. Good Luck