Peaceful...I think you have a great outlook on this. Everyone is different, and for some, myself included, starting back at day one and beating yourself up over it will only make you keep drinking. For me, having a few beers, compared to the bottle (s) of wine I would drink, is different, and at least you stopped. I know everyone may not agree, but I think looking at it as a learning experience is positive, and if it keeps you from drinking again, then who can say it's wrong? On to day 51 for you!