Hi - I am new to this site and posting. I don't know how I got to this point in my life and I am scared. In December I had an abortion and my life has gone down hill from there. Everytime I got sad, loney, anxious I would pop a pill. Soon 1 turned into 2 and so on. It got to the point that I am spending $200 a week on pills. I have lost my job, I have lost my boyfriend, my best friend and I am about to lose my house. I have tried to stop and I just can't. I am looking into rehab facilites but it is hard when you can't afford it. I am just scared and I don't know what else to do. Has anybody ever hit rock bottom like this? If so how did you handle it?