We can make a decision to not to let our weakness destroy everything that is great about us. The part that is addicted will try every trick there is to keep the drinking going. It is only in retrospect that I realised the terror that overwhelmed me when I thought of never drinking again was an emotional mirage caused by addiction. Thankfully we can also choose to take it one day at a time. Living sober is living. Previously I was getting by between drinks.