Agree a 1,000 times over that you cannot help him. That is part of the lie that we who love addicts believe, we can love them out of addiction, help them by controlling the money, the drugs, etc....none of it works!!!!! He was probably so upset because he was 'coming down' and you may not be able to see him as an addict, but believe me addicts can function, have a job, go to work, and still manage to destroy their lives and the lives of those around them. It may take years to see the "loss of job, family, etc..." but if he stays on the road he is on it will happen. Hope you aren't around to watch it. Been with my addict husband (AH) for 15 years, and it doesn't get better. It may look like it is getting better, but then it will get worse, or change, but it's all still addiction and all you can do is help yourself and walk before you have any kids together, etc.....Good luck! BTW a 'rollercoaster ride' is the perfect example of what happens with one caveat, you hate rollercoaster rides, they scare the hell out of you and make you sick and constantly afraid, and then it's exactly like a rollercoaster ride.