strength for all parties involved
This is just really hard. I understand where I stand but it is hard to keep that balance. His character defect, holding people hostage or being held hostage instead of having a real healthy relationship, is what is going on now. This is a real lesson for me in just allowing him to do that he chooses but not to get angry and just end the relationship entirely until I see a clear choice being made that he wants to stay with creepy forever. From the emails and actions, it would seem he is slowly leaving that situation as long as he feels emotionally comfortable, but I am prepared for all possible scenarios. He is still honoring our marriage, connection, even if it very meek and limited. I hope he can find the strength to get through this, if not, well, I KNOW I HAVE THE STRENGTH to move on.