AprilMay1895 asked about how to develop an aversion to the Beast, so here you go, April.
Ask yourself:
"Given my own history with alcohol/drugs, is it morally right or morally wrong for me to ever drink/use again?"
What does your Beast think?
What do you think?
Spend some time shifting back and forth, but pay attention, because
your answer will probably seal your fate. If you've finally had enough, you will likely hate what your Beast loves (the buzz), and your Beast will probably hate what you love (living free); each of you will answer the question accordingly.