Yeah, I knew it was my addictive voice but since I came back to these forums (last Tuesday) I never made any formal plan to stop drinking. I went back to AA just last Tuesday too which was what made me come back to these forums, and I have been learning since then that there are other options for recovery. I knew that this method is something I want to do. Just needed to assign a formal day to start it...which is today. Maybe it sounds ludicrous, but it makes sense to me. I read on this forum Terminally Unique's levels of the beast's anxiety when making "I will not drink until..." statements. 1-5 were incrementally painful but 6 made me feel like I could breathe again. I am sick of the battle of wills between me and my addiction, I just want it gone for good.