Welcome Deserto -
You've taken a first step just by coming here and admitting your problem. I think most of us have a huge fear of getting sober at first. I put it off for years and kept making attempts to cut back/limit my drinking, anything to justify not stopping all together.
I finally had to face the fact that the only way I was ever going to get free is to not pick up a drink in the first place. What I was so afraid of turned out to be the best thing I've ever done. Life is so much better today.
The thing is, we can't do this alone (or we would have already done so). I'm glad you're here - if we can do it, so can you!
