I realize intellectually that I am trying to force my ethics and principles onto someone who has proven time and time again he has none, except those that cater directly to his benefit. Part of me agrees - take the loss and run like heck and never, ever look back because this guy is nuttier than a Pay Day candy bar, stalking the Peppermint Patty in the candy aisle.
But...I get all tangled up in what I feel is "the right thing to do", by my own personal standards. And of course, my folks are pushing me like crazy to pursue something.
I didn't want the divorce - he did. I thought all was fine - he was the one who created a bunch of drama this month and ran with it to the point of sheer lunacy.
*SIGH* I know I got the best of him - the first year we were together. All the rest was drunken madness, just like now. But when he says "fair", I just cringe inside knowing there is absolutely nothing fair in any of this, and that has been perpetuated by him.