Originally Posted by
familydestroyed 
It hurts now when I see couples out and I ask myself why can't i have that type of relationship.
There are far worse things than being alone, hon. I do understand that pain because I went through it for some time after hitting my codependent bottom.
Now, 12 years later, I actually enjoy being by myself, and am not the least interested in some sort of relationship.
I believe you can have that type of relationship, just not with him.