Originally Posted by
familydestroyed 
I am mad at GOD. I am a strong Catholic. I pray all the time.
I can relate to being mad at God, in fact, just yesterday driving home from work, I told God that. I said, "God I am angry and I am angry with you!". I was yelling and crying. I think God can handle it and can understand. It actually made me feel better to say it out loud. It does not mean I don't believe or love God but I was mad as hell. After that little burst, I told God I needed a miracle but instead of asking for a miracle for my AH, I was asking for me and my well being. I know you have cried out to God many times, God is not going to go againt your AH will. If your AH will is to do drugs, he is gonna do drugs. Just turn over your AH to God (HP) and start praying for you and your family and not your AH. I think it will help. Of course what do I know, I am new at this.
Hugs and prayers to you! I am sorry you are going through this!