So much great advice here I can't add much except to say - wiggle, if you feel poorly I recommend seeing a Dr - detox is nothing to mess with.
It's good to see you back
Classical - it's good to see you back too
I think for some of us - me certainly - it can take a while to accept the reality that we are what we are - even when we really don't want to be this way.
It also took me a while to find other ways to cope with moments of great emotion...I'd turned to the bottle for 20 years.
I think it's great you didn't lose yourself - you're back and re-focused.
& Beulah - if I didn't make this clear enough in my last post to you - it's wonderful to have you back too
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