A different world?
One of the very big issues in my life and one of the reasons I always end up going back to drinking is because my husband is still a heavy drinker. When I'm trying to get sober and am not drinking, it's like we don't have a relationship anymore. No connection. No intimacy. It's not like we are fighting. We are just completely neutral. In two different worlds. A marriage cannot survive very long like that. I don't think he's ever coming over to my world, so I always end up going back to his. Which is not being true to myself. All I've been for 20 yrs is a mom. One of my children has brain cancer and I have lupus and am unable to work. So to not have my marriage terrifies me. I keep going back to his world out of fear and that's a horrible way to live. Does anyone have any experience with this or any suggestions? I really don't want to drink again, but I feel like it's inevitable at some point.