Originally Posted by
kiki26 
... but this little voice is already there after only a few days telling me I can. I feel like I have dual personalities, one saying "One day at time, I can do this" the other saying "alright just limit yourself to drinking on the weekends...or just have three drinks then stop". ...
Yeah - or I'll only drink white wine because I don't even like it, or I'll never drink before 8 pm, or I'll smoke a joint and only drink a little, yada, yada, yada ...
Every alcoholic tried to hold on to drinking by any rationalization they could think of. Nothing works. One sip is too much and 100 drinks are not enough. It's tough to face but there are two choices - don't drink or drink and end up dead.
Don't mean to sound harsh, but that's the reality of it. The good news is that once you come to terms with it you find that sobriety is so much better. Think about how free you were when you left your prevous inpatient.