As the many years have proven beyond doubt, for this alcoholic to say I don't want to be an alcoholic is kinda like saying I don't want five toes on my feet, because I think four toes looks better. My choice then is to either hack off a couple toes.....ouch, or learn to be happy with five and walk as well as possible with what I've got.
Sometimes we just have to accept what is and make the best of it.