Here we go again
5 days sober, my second time around. Two years ago I went to an inpatient for 30 days after a tailspin of horrible things (all due to my drinking). I came out clean, refreshed, and ready to start my life again. Six months later I was drinking socially, occasionally, and on the weekends. Well here I am back again, drinking everyday. I want to quit. I do NOT want to be an alcoholic, even though I know I am. I know I can never have just one drink, but this little voice is already there after only a few days telling me I can. I feel like I have dual personalities, one saying "One day at time, I can do this" the other saying "alright just limit yourself to drinking on the weekends...or just have three drinks then stop". Very frustrating, but I want to do this for myself and I will hang in there.