Thank you so much to everyone. I am so grateful for you and your responses. It has helped me to not feel so "crazy" tonight. I took a bath and am about to dive into a bowl of ice cream! All of your suggestions and encouragement helped get me thru tonight. I am staying sober. And Anna, I believe you are right. I need to stay away from people drinking. At least until I have more sobriety under my belt. I so want to make it this time. Thanks again to everyone.